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HOUSE => LIVING ROOM => Topic started by: neigh on October 12, 2017, 03:07:46 pm
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Alison's Aunt
*ring the doorbell*
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Dallas hears the doorbell ring and goes to see who it is. Opening the door, Dallas sees a woman.
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Comes behind Dallas
Good morning Dallas
Looks at the lady
May I help you?
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"I'm Alison's aunt. I would like to see her."
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How do I know you are her aunt? No one told me you were coming by
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"Sorry. When I visited my brother in prison he gave me your address but not your contact info. She'll be able to identify me."
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Ok
Alison come here for a minute please
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Alison
*come downstairs* "Aunt Elli, what are you doing here?"
Elli
"I wanted to check on you."
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Listens to the conversation
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When Ms.China came up behind Dallas, he looked up with a blank expression. He looked back at the lady at the door and lightly bowed his head before leaving. As the boy did so, he past by Alison who was making her way to Ms.China.
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Alison
*smile slightly at Dallas, and then look back toward my aunt*
Alison's Aunt
"How have you been doing?"
Alison
*nervously* "Not too bad."
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Just looks at them trying to see where this is going*
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Alison's Aunt
"I was wonder if you wanted to come and stay with me?"
Alison
"Really?"
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Alison's Aunt
"Yeah, really?"
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*sits and listens to this conversation and thinks heck no in my head*
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Alison's Aunt
"Would you like that?"
Alison
"I can still keep my horses right?"
Alison's Aunt
"They will have to live at a boarding stable, but yes."
Alison
"Then yes I would."
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*looks at them but doesn't say anything*
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Alison's Aunt
"Well then go pack."
Alison
*start heading upstairs*
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Looks at her aunt while she is upstairs*
*raises eyebrow*
Do you have the paper work or anything to take her?
*knowing that she doesn't because I would have to release her to someone else*
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"Her father said it was alright."
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But I did not I have all paper work and I have not decided to release her. You didn't even have the decency to talk to me so I can understand the situation I have full custody of her right now so u or her dad can't make that decision only I can you come up in here like u can just take her that isn't right at all
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"I shouldn't have too. You're not family."
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But guess what I'm the one who has custody sooooooo I make those decisions of where she can and can't go
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"He said you didn't want to take her, when he dropped her off, and that she's someone who probably shouldn't be around little kids, so you should be glad I'm willing to take her."
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I did take her where we're u when she was dropped off on my doorstep where were u when she needed To go to the hospital where were u when she dilivered her baby where were u to buy her clothes shoes food the baby too where were u when she started school???
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"Wait, are you saying you let her keep the baby?"
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Of course I did. It was a boy his name is Andrew. He is a very sweet baby. And Alison loves that little boy so much.
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"She shouldn't be raising a child. She's only thirteen."
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Well she wanted to keep the baby and I allowed her too. I have bought everything for the baby clothes milk toys whatever the baby need the baby has. She not raising that baby alone she has the help and support she needs from me. And yeah she is young but the situation was rapee she didn't choose to have that kid but he is here and will be taken care of
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"Her father claims she's become a seductress since I last saw her, and brought the situation onto herself."
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Her father lied. I talked to the dude when he was just dropping her off he admitted she didn't do nothing wrong
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"He said he told you that she was slutty."
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Pfft he lied to u
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"Now why would he do that?" (he actually did tell Ms. China that she was a slutty child)
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He said the only reason he called her that was because if he called it abuse it would lead to suspicion
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"Well I know what he did, and he told me it was abuse but that she's so screwed up that she liked it."
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Girl she did not like it she was forced. We have talked about this. And what you not going to do is come in here and blame this shitt on her
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"Well her dad did. How do you know, anyway?"
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Because I listen to her unlike you believing everything her dad say and still try to blame it on her
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"And what makes you so sure that she's telling the truth and her dad is not?"
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Because I know how it is to be forced! I went through it and I'm not gonna allow you or anyone else make her feel bad about it
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"I don't plan too. She's a child, and she made a mistake."
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She didn't make the mistake she was forced into it!
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"I've seen her with her brother. They were very close, so I don't buy that."
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Look lady just get out my house good bye
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"I can't. She'll be coming down any second, expecting me to still be here."
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Too bad she isn't allowed to go with you. You sittin up here acting like it's her fault I seriously hate people like you
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"Well then whose fault was it?"
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The person who forced her!!! what the fuc.k don't you understand About that??
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"He also claimed that their mother knew it was happening, and allowed it too."
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Dude shut the **** up and just get out
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Alison's Aunt
*leave*
Alison
*come downstairs, with Andrew and mine and his things* "Where's Aunt Elli?"
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You can go out your stuff back your aunt was being dumb blaming all that crap on you I won't allow her or anyone else to bring you down more about Andrew
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Alison
*think it must really be my fault, if Aunt Elli is blaming me too*
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It's not your fault
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"Well it wasn't completely his fault."
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Yes it was it was forced
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"Only because he knew that it was okay."
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It was not ok just because someone allows it does not mean it's okay
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"We both thought it did."
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It does not
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"But we thought it did. He didn't think he was doing anything wrong."
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Okay I have a question.
If ummm ok.. if Amber hit Jenny and Jenny came and told me that Amber hit her and I said oh well it's allowed.
And didn't do anything about it
Is it ok because it was allowed?
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"No, but she would think that it was."
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No she wouldn't because she has feelings and Jenny would know that wasn't ok and she wouldn't understand why Amber didn't get in trouble so no she would not think it was ok.
What if Andrew was 5 and he started kindergarten right and he went to class and came home and said mommy a boy pushed me and took my snacks and I told the teacher and she said it was fine
What would u say
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*gasp* "I'd say it wasn't fine, and that he would have to switch to a different class."
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But the teacher allowed it so I mean it was fine .... righhhtttt????
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"I'm his Mommy, not the teacher."
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But what if u went to the principal and then told him what happens and even the principal said it was fine and that Andrew can't switch to another class and he has to stay in that class so now the teacher and the principal is saying it's fine
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"Then I won't be sending him to that school anymore."
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Hmm but what if that's the only school close enough to home for him to be able to go to? Then what if the other kids started telling Andrew it was hit fault the kid hit him because he was just standing there at the wrong time?
Then Andrew started to believe that it really was his fault because everyyyyoneee else is saying it's his fault so now he believes it... I mean it was allowed to happen so now he believes it's ok
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Alison
*start sobbing, at the thought of the situation*
Andrew
*start crying*
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See what I'm saying? Everybody saying it fine and it's allowed and even Andrew starts to believe it's fine because everyone else says it's allowed. Only person that has some sense is you because you know it's not ok and u keep telling Andrew it's not ok but he don't believe you because everyone else saying it's fine but you know it's not
See that's kind of the situation I have now because everybody telling u it was your fault and U believing it but I'm the only one saying it not but u don't believe me u believe everyone else u believe the negative over the positive
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"Your not my family. They are."
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Sometimes your family isn't just the ones who are related to you. Family is the people who care for you help you encourage you and be there for you family is people who really love you and try to make sure you are good no matter what happens and always have your back. Even close friends can turn into family I have many friends that I call my sisters because we are so close and are always there for each other. Anyone can be family as long as they are really looking out for you and they have your back.
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"Me and my brother loved and cared for each other."
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I'm sure u did. He still did a bad thing to u. Which isn't okay. But like u said it was allowed by other people so he may not have known it was bad but it still was which does not excuse his actions toward u.
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"Why doesn't it?"
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Because it doesnt if he was alive right now he would be in jail he should have known in the back of his mind that sisters and brothers are not supposed to do that with each other. That is not right and there is no excuse for him to force you into that.
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"He wouldn't be in jail. I'd never press charges."
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Doesn't matter. When u rapee a family member especially a minor it's out of your hands the system takes over and he would be in jail by force
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"He's a minor too. He's only seventeen."
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Does not matter they would still take him right on to jail
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Alison
*sob*
Andrew
*cry harder*
Ms. Womzie
*walk into the room* "Alison, I could take Andrew back to his room and calm him down."
Alison
*through tears* "I'm his Mother. I should be able to calm him down myself."
Ms. Womzie
"You have to calm down yourself fist."
Alison
*just keep sobbing*
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Why are you crying? And Andrew does not need to be in here while you are upset
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Ms. Womzie
*step toward Alison, reaching my arms out and hoping she'll hand him to me*
Alison
*keep crying, hold him tighter*
Andrew
*cry harder*
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Allison I love you and I'm here for you but I'm also here for Andrew and I won't allow you to stress him him because you can't keep your self together so please give him to me womzie and we will countinue our talk and once u are calm u can get him back
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Alison
*through tears* "He'he's my baby. I should be able to calm him down myself."
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Well you aren't calming down yourself so obviously u can't calm him down until u calm yourself
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Alison and Andrew
*keep crying*
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Give Andrew to ms womzie now
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Alison
*scream* "No."
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Okay fine keep upsetting Andrew and make him stressed
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Andrew
*scream and sream*
Alison
*try to stop crying, but I can't with Ms. China so mad*
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Oh look now he screaming even louder.
alison make him stop crying. Calm him down I don't know how you are going to do it but do it now
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Alison
"Can, can you stop yelling?"
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I not yelling I just speaking firm.
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Alison
*start crying again*
Andrew
*cry even harder*
Ms. Womzie
"Alison, please give him to me."
Alison
"No!"
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*speaks in a soft but firm voice* you are going to have to either calm him down now or give him to me womzie this is my last time telling you so choose wisely last and final warning.
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Alison
*try to calm down, but can't, keep a hold of him*
Andrew
*keep crying*
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Okay that was your last warning. *i use my strength to firmly but gently making sure not to hurt Andrew and take him from allusions hands and I gently rock him back and forth*
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Alison
*start screaming, repeatedly*
Andrew
*can't calm down because Mommy is even more upset now*
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All that screaming go to your room when u done we can talk good bye
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Alison
*continue*
Ms. Womzie
"Alison, if you don't cut that out I will grab you and drag you to your room."
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In the most firm voice I have ever used I say "go to your room right now"
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Alison
*stay up*
Ms. Womzie
*wrap arms around her waist, and start dragging her to her room*
Alison
*start to fight, but then submit*
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When Alison is in her room I sit down and rick Andrew gently and sees it's time for him to eat so I give him his bottle as he calms down
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*eventually stop crying, sit and pout*
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After a while of rocking Andrew feeding him and getting him to burp I change his diaper and rock him a little more til he falls asleep I gently lay him in the extra crib I set up in my room so he can sleep peacefully while I go talk to Alison I put the baby monitor by the crib so we could hear if he wakes up or anything and I walk to Alison's room and open her door
Are u done screaming your head off yet?
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*nod, really upset with myself*
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That's good I want you to really understand all that screaming and tantrum you just threw especially in front of Andrew will not be tolerated. That behavior will not happen again do I make myself clear?
Now tell me what were you feeling that made you have that outburst like that?
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"You said that my brother would be in jail if he were alive, and that thought of that made me really upset. Then Andrew get upset, which reminded me that I'm a terrible mother. Is Andrew okay?"
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Andrew is fine he is sleep now. I fed him changed him buried him he calmed down and went to sleep.
And yes your brother would have went to jail I don't want to lie to you so I told u the truth I know it's upsetting but it's just true
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"Are you going to punish me?" *really think I deserve it*
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No that was your first tantrum you get a warning you're fine just don't let that type of tantrum happen again especially in front of Andrew and don't ever scream no to me when I tell you to do something because that will get you in trouble quickly
but at this time no you are not in trouble
because I understand the emotional thoughts that you were going through you don't deserve to be punished every single time you do something that is it totally not right you only deserve to be punished when you continue doing something someone has told you not to
Here you only get punished when you are blatantly disrespectful or when you directly do not follow my rules on purpose after I specifically told you not to do something and if you do something so dangerous that I just have to punish you or if you just break the rules in general those are the only times you really get in trouble here
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*surprised, knowing that at home I'd be getting the strap*
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Yeah you not gonna get spanked for everything here only when u really really deserve it and I rarely spank unless u just need it because u were extremely disrespectful or really just broke almost every rule I have put in place or u just did something very dangerous that u knew better. I am firm and strict but fair. Mostly u will either get grounded time out or have extra chores
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"Those are punishments?" *think of when I was pregnant and I was banned from being near horses or leaving the house for several months, and my brother had extra chores, but we did not consider ourselves being punished, because that was never the way things worked in our family*
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Yes they are
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"I know I shouldn't get so upset around him, and I don't really have control over it."
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Well it's your fault because you chose to keep him when we gave u the option to let him go with ms womzie but you wanted to be stubborn and scream and shout and throw a tantrum in his view while u holding him. That was the consequence of your choice u upset him way more then if u would have just gave him to her when she asked
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"I should be able to calm down and calm him down myself." *start crying*
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Well obviously you can't do that yet you have a support system here that will help you with Andrew u know I'm always going to help and so will ma womzie you have to learn when u are upset he gets upset and that's not fair for u to keep him around u when u can't even calm yourself down you have to think about what's best for him not just what u want
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"I just want to be a good mom, or at least a decent one."
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Okay being a good mom starts with not thinking of yourself but the best decision for your child. Not having him around you when u are upset is a good decision for him because when u upset he upset and that's not what we want he needs to be calm as much as possible
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"Why do I keep having to give him to other people?"
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Well you gone have to learn to calm yourself down that's the only option
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"I can't. I don't know how."
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You gonna have to learn
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"Then teach me how."
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That's something you gonna have to figure out yourself
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*start sobbing again, because I've tried and I can't*
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See all that stop it
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*through tears* "How?"
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Just stop yourself think happy thoughts not sad ones come on u can do it
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"What happy thoughts?"
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Girl think about Andrew and how much u love him that's a happy thought
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"Which reminds me that I'm a bad Mommy and he deserves better."
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Omg u know what fine fine fine think whatever u want
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"I don't want to think that, but I know it's true. I make him upset, and then he get's taken away."
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He hasn't been taken from u girl he still in the same house u you can still see him and everything we just help u with him but you know what taken away means?
That's when the social workers come get him and u never see him again would you like me to arrange that since you are so bad of a mother according to your words I can actually get him taken
is that what you would like?
I've sat up here and told you time and time again it doesn't matter as long as you love him you're a good mother
I'm not gonna keep telling you the same stuff over and over because if you cannot start thinking positive then you don't deserve him because when he grows up all he's going to ever see is you being negative toward yourself and that's not gonna happen because you if u negative then he's going to think he's not a good person and he's going to think negatively about himself because his mom thinks negatively about herself
That Won't be tolerated
you have so many people in this house That support you and will help you with him and you just going to be negative?
I'm not going to tolerate that
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*scream* "No! No!" *sob*
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Then stop it and hush wipe your face *give her some tissue*
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*wipe my face, but the tears keep on coming*
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You need to learn the difference between helping you with him and taking him from you don't ever say u got him taken because that's not true and you know it
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"You took him from my arms when I didn't even want help with him."
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Do you know why? Because I told u multiple times to let him go to mswomzie because u wanted to cry and make him cry even more do you think that was a good decision? No you don't and like I told you I'm gonna make sure Andrew is ok at all times yes you are him mom but sometimes you need help and if u can't make the much needed decisions that HAS to be made I will step in and make sure what needs to happen happens. U are a child yourself and u need help with a baby weather u want it or not. I have both of u best interest in mind and if I have to be stern when it comes to the best decisions for Andrew because u won't take the advice/ warnings I provide to you then yes I will step in I even said to you this is your final warning let ma womzie get Andrew so u can calm down you screamed no and he started crying more I had to step in then u started screaming over and over in his view point I made u go to your room so yes I stepped in because u wouldn't do the right thing
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"That's why I think I'm a bad mom."
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Okay you want to be negative still fine
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"Well can you even come up with anything positive about me?"
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I tell u positive stuff all the time. I tell u that u are a good mom I tell u that all u need to do is just love Andrew and that you have the help and support you need for u to be able to raise Andrew right. U are so young that you don't know how to be just the best mom in the world yet but that's with all mom's anyway no matter how old u are being a mom is all about learning u not just gonna know u have to really learn and you have to understand it takes multiple people to really raise a child you need all the love and support and help you can get and you have it you never have to worry about if Andrew is gonna have what he needs do you? I provide everything both of u guys need and that is a good thing that's supposed and help I tell u that u are a good mom I tell u that u do a good job with him
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"I'm his mom. I shouldn't have help from anyone, except maybe his dad."
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Ok fine I'm gonna stop buying everything I'm gonna take what I have bought back and u do u u buy everything if u cry in front of him and he cries I'm not saying anything I'm done
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"Money to buy stuff is supposed to come from Daddies."
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Ok well how is that gonna happen then?? Exactly how are u gonna get money from his dad? Tell me
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*angry* "I can't. There's no possible way, because my Daddy stole him from me." *sob*
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Well then if there is no possible way you gonna have to figure out a way to get him stuff because their are thousands of single moms that take care of their kids and ms womzie is one of them ms womzie gets stuff for Kevin u don't see him with a dad do u but me womzie is grown to u not even old enough to get s job yet so what are u going to do? I'm one to u don't see me with a man helping me I provide for all y'all with no man sooo
Miss I don't need help what u gonna do?
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"I really want to not need help."
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I said okay but what are you going to do to not need help?
Everyone needs help with babies especially young parents. You not wanting help is going to affect Andrew negatively it's not about you any more it's about Andrew and you need to get that through your head. If I stopped helping you like you want me to then what's going to happen to andrew
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"A good mother wouldn't need help."
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Why you lying to yourself
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"I'm not lying. Why do you think I am?"
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Because you are lying to yourself I got enough kids to know u do need help and u won't listen to the positive advice I'm giving you you want to label yourself as a bad mom and u will argue til u blue in the face with me telling me all the reasons why. I'm done with this conversation
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*cry* "I know I need help, but I also know that that's what makes me a bad mother."
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I'm so not doing this with you I can't
*walks out the room* when u want to talk to me with some positivity then u can come talk to me
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"Well what do you want out of me?" *sob*
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I'm not doing this!!! You only want to keep saying you a bad mom I keep telling u that u are not you just keep arguing that you are you won't for a second except me advice and the positivity I am speaking to u u only want negativity I'm not doing this
*walks away*
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*follows her* "How am I a good mom when I can't even take care of him by myself?"
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Bye Alison don't follow me I told u I'm done with the negativity I'll call the social workers in the morning and u can explain to them what u explained to me how does that sound?
*kniwing that I wouldn't really do that but saying it in hopes she starts to at least try to think positive about herself*
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*realize that she actually does think I'm a bad mom since she's going to call the social worker about it, know I'm going to lose Andrew, think that that might be better for Andrew, but I see no reason to live anymore, go into the kitchen, grab a knife, start slighting my wrist*
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*takes the knife from her* really?
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*look at my now bleeding wrist, and up at her with tear filled eyes, wonder what she was expecting*
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Girl now I gotta take you to the dang hospital so they can fix whatever u just did. U have to realize you are not a baby anymore u are a mother no i was not gonna really let no body come get Andrew I was hoping u would say no I'll start being more positive for my child I was gonna say ok then that's good but u rather come in here and try to cut yourself and leave Andrew all alone cuz if u die how will Andrew have a mom? Kinda selfish isn't it? Give me this *tales her arm cleans it off and stops the blood and then wraps it with the appropriate bandages*
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*don't try to defend myself, or say anything*
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Marcello came rushing in, trying to not seem like he was in a panic.
"Hi, one of the kids said something was up and - " Marcello looked at Alison's arm. Shock washed over the man's face but he tried to keep his cool. "Holy - I'm going to be honest, I nearly swore there. Um, yea, Ms China, I have to report this and this ain't gonna look good on the papers."
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Alison
*look down, sure I'm in big trouble, wonder what Marcello's talking about*
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Looks at marcello as I’m caring for Alison’s arm* Dude don’t you see I’m trying to make sure she is fine I have to take her to the hospital since she decided to cut her self up. Now do you need to tell me something before I leave or not?
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Alison
*still stay silent, but wonder how getting angry could be making sure I'm fine*
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Rolls my eyes* never mind if you need me just call me come on Allison you should be fine until we get to the hospital iv stopped the bleeding cleaned it and wrapped it the proper way they will look at it and see if anything further needs to be done
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Alison
"Is there really nobody taking Andrew away?"
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Girl do you really think I would allow someone to take Andrew? No I won’t unless you really don’t want to be him Mom anymore. That’s why it’s something called adoption. But if you are willing to be his mother step up and learn how to be a mom and understand that you will make mistakes here and there but it don’t matter no one is perfect just realize you aren’t in this alone I am your support system I’ll be helping you every step of the way every body needs help and that’s okay it’s a part of life.
But you have to realize that you cannot sit there and feel sorry for yourself And want to cut yourself or anything you have a baby to be worried about now is not about you anymore everything now is about Andrew.
Will this benefit Andrew? will this help Andrew? It’s just Andrew Andrew Andrew now. these are the questions you have to ask yourself now with every decision you make it’s not about you anymore you cannot be selfish it’s all about him. When You have children you have to make sacrifices and you have to just think about that child in everything you do.
It’s time to grow up now and start learning how to be a mom and knowing that you are not going to know what to do all the time it’s okay to have help.
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"I only did it because you said I would be losing him."
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Girl that’s when you stand up and say no don’t take him from me I will learn to be a better mom. Period point blank. Don’t sit there and be selfish and not try to fight for your child if you can’t stop trying to make it all about you the that’s selfish you have a child now grown up and understand that now all your decisions will be made of of what is best for Andrew
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"I'm worried that I might not be who's best for him."
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Stop feeling sorry for yourself and learn to be a mom
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"I'm mostly just worried about Andrew."
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If you worried about him you wouldn’t be talking about you not being a good mom u would just suck it up and start to learn how to be a good mom. Being a good mom don’t happen overnight you have to learn how to do it. It’s through experience
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Alison
"But what if I've scared him for life or something already?"
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He is just a baby he has his whole life ahead of him u do too u have a lot to learn so does he you will be fine and so will he
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"He deserves for me to know what I'm doing now."
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Girl you have to learn. Stop making excuses and accept the help be Happy you have someone that actually cares about you both
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"My brother cared about me."
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Yeah yeah. But im talking bout a responsibile adult who will guide you and actually teach you how to take care of this child I love Andrew and I’m nit willing to let anything bad happen to him so u gonna have to get with the program and be open to learning
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Alison
"My mother was teaching me how to take care of him when I was pregnant. There's just so much she hadn't gotten too."